the fourth Karamazov child
crowned miss world
in early spring
pray for chaos
to have sympathy
if I exert my will
will chaos change once
it is explained
or does the magic disappear
outside is a bird
there is just no image available
to prove it only pieces of pelvis
and once again I accept I am
a self narrating being naked against the glass
reading a history of what my blood dreams
there are no secrets here
only birds to chase
to become herself
she would
have to eat
her own hair
a practice based on
the theory of paincircles
relies on evidence
of laughter evolution
seafoam walking into the sun
legged and becoming
her hair developed underwater
before the legs and lungs
still her own only now
pulled down by gravity
in the air it curdles
and is still from the salt
Jessica Buten is a poet from Bucks County Pennsylvania.
